Wednesday, September 2, 2009

When Your World Stops Turning

Last night I found out some very sad news. Someone that I grew up with in Georgia, that I had known since I was 5-years old passed away. I'll be 34 in 22 days. This is not supposed to be happening. There are so many people in this world that are positively evil and they get to live nice, long lives. Granted, some of them are in prison, but still they've lived to see another day. My friend, who was genuinely a good person will never wake up in her own bed again, wondering what the day has to offer. She'll never get to eat her favorite foods and watch her favorite TV shows. I know that there's supposed to be another existence far superior to the one that we lead here on Earth, but damnit, she had a lot more living to do! She was the only person that I've been in contact with during recent years that saw me in all of the stages of my early development. Elementary, middle, and high school we knew each other. We hung out. We talked. We did things together. Up until about 5 years ago, I hadn't seen her since we graduated from high school, but then a mutual friend brought us together again. I knew she was sick, but I had no idea how bad it had gotten. She's the 5th person from my high school graduating class that has passed away (at least as far as I know), and I've only been out of high school for 15 years. Something like this makes me face my own mortality, but it also makes me wonder who chooses which people live to see another day and which end up dying young. What is it based on? I know some people who should've been dead long ago, but they're still here causing misery and heartache. It seems that many who could do a lot of good in this world leave it too soon. This is something that I know I'll never understand, but it won't stop me from wondering. Those of you who are religious will say that this is the way that things were meant to be. Although I'm not particularly religious, I am spiritual, and I know that things have their own reasons for happening. That still doesn't change the fact that I'm sad that Amy is gone. She went through some tough times and I'm glad she doesn't have to deal with them anymore, but I can't help questioning it all as my world stops turning for a brief moment in contemplation of what was and what will never be. Rest in Peace, Amy. I thoroughly enjoyed our time together.

6 comments:

  1. Life stinks sometimes.... keep smiling Michelle. love Sharon (TheBruvs & Mr Darcy...x)

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  2. I too am not at all religious and I know exactly what you mean. They say only the good die young and perhaps they're right, but it seems unfair that those who enhance other's lives should be taken, whilst others who cause nothing but chaos remain. And why? Often for no other reason than genes and/or bad luck. And what do they leave behind? Well, in this case, good memories and an abiding affection. Keep it safe Michelle.

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  3. What a moving tribute to your friend.
    Signed: Smokey8 (from Twitter)

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  4. I'm sending you good wishes. This loss will stay with you for a long time. It's so hard to lose good friends, especially ones in whom we can confide. I'm so sorry for your loss and hope that you find comfort.

    Hugs...Max

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  5. I'm so sorry about your friend. It's horrible to think about people that we love leaving us, especially at such a young age. But, it is also an opportunity to maximize the time that we have. Honor her memory by continuing to make your life full of purpose and love. XO

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  6. I do understand how you feel. I have lost more friends then I care to count. Why do our friends died, especially the good ones? I have no real answer either. I only know after the sadness passes, we just need to be happy that we knew them. Be grateful you did get the opportunity to have them in your life. Pay tribute to them when you can, and remember and live by any good lesson you have learned.
    Hailey’s Dragonfly Garden

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